Luke David Gemma \\ April 27, 2017 \\ 9lb 5ounces 19.5″
With Mother’s day being this weekend, I thought it would be the perfect time to share photos from Luke’s arrival – he was hitting the 24 hour mark when we were shooting these actually! I can barely look at these without my eyes watering. Luke has totally changed our world – ALL for the better. The past two weeks have been the best, ever! Honestly, I hate to admit this to you all but I have lived the past decade or so in ‘waiting for the next big thing’ mode. I am sure it mostly stems from the medical school // residency journey. During John’s first year of medical school, I was getting my MBA in Arkansas (he was in Virginia). I was always thinking “oh in May when I finish my MBA, I will move to be with John and then life will be better!” and then each year it was something new. The last year of medical school, it was me rushing the year constantly saying “if we could just get to May when you graduate, life will really begin when we start residency!” and BOY! Residency.. haha, yikes! I literally have counted down the days to wrapping this show up! I’ve been living for June 2017 for 3 years now! The point is, I have constantly rushed life in way – basically trying to get out of this medical training lifestyle. Don’t get me wrong, we have really made the most of it. We’ve made incredible new friends, traveled to some of the most gorgeous places, and had some exceptional experiences, but I was still always waiting for the next big thing. I was telling my mom last week that for once in my life, I don’t care about any certain date or anything now that Luke is here [let’s not get too crazy, I will be thrilled when we get to spend more time with John post residency!]. It’s as if I want everything to slow down completely now. I get sad every night when I nurse him and put him into the bassinet next to me because I know he’s going to be one day older when he wakes up. 🙁 After spending so many years waiting for the next stage in life, it is strange to suddenly want to slow everything down. I literally want to soak up every single moment him and take it all in – no more rushing.
I’ve shared on my social media that I am not planning on doing a birth story or anything. We decided as a family that Luke’s due date and birth story will remain a private, special family moment. I love blogging and sharing our life with all of you, but I want to keep some personal moments and experiences to our family. I hope you all understand. BUT, I do have a random, kind of funny story to share that many of you will appreciate! So, the morning of the 27th was kind of a chaotic mess – we were running around the house throwing things into a suitcase (I had yet to pack my hospital bag). I was really hustling because I wanted to kind of get ready and be presentable just because I knew we’d be taking photos after his arrival. Once we got the hospital I got really nervous – I was the most scared I’ve ever been in my life, therefore I act goofier than usual. Anyway, once things got going, the nurse anesthetist came by, she mentioned that Dr. Lindsay would be by shortly for the epidural. The first thing out of my mouth was “Is that Rachel Lindsay’s uncle?!” and everyone in the room laughed. Basically like “what is this girl talking about?!”. [Rachel Lindsay was a finalist on Nick’s season of the Bachelor and is now the Bachelorette starting this summer.] When he walked in, I said something to the effect of “rumor has it you are Rachel Lindsay’s uncle?!” and I quickly discovered he’s a very stern, serious physician who is not a big fan of shows like that, oops! :/ He ended up being a lot less serious and chatted about it a lot more which was pretty interesting.
As far as being a mom goes, I have to say that I am loving every minute of it. Yes, it is hard – people are not joking when they say that! However, it is also SO much fun and so special. For me, the hardest part is nursing. It’s so much pressure to be in charge of a tiny human’s weight gain. My days revolve around nursing and pumping to try to boost/keep supply up. I totally get why people say breastfeeding is tough – it really is not what I expected it to be at all, but we are learning daily! Also, my priorities changed so drastically so fast – which I’ve found to be a blessing. It’s as if having children of your own kind of shows you what is most important in this life.
One a completely different note, I am so BEYOND grateful for my own mother. Like woah! Talk about a God send, we could not be doing any of this without her. John is on a tough rotation – he is gone over 12 hours per day some of which are 7pm – 7am (err!!). My mom takes off from work each week so that she can stay with me while John is gone. We would be so lost without her. Not only does she take great care of Luke, but she cooks dinners (always John’s faves tho!), helps me get things done for my work, helps with laundry and cleaning the house, etc. Also! We just have the best time together – she is constantly making me laugh and have fun with all of these changes.
I will do a blog post on his nursery soon! We just got a few of the final touches done this week and hopefully will shoot it soon!
I hope you all have a wonderful Mother’s day!